Sometimes I catch myself mentally figuring out the calories I am eating and thinking about how much physical work that would be to burn it off( I know, sounds unhealthy). My healthy weight and lifestyle has been a struggle. I had two high risk pregnancies, and than with that I tried my HARDEST to lose weight the “healthy” way ( exercising and eating cleaner). I finally, after much convincing and nudging I sought out help from a Naturopath. It has been a year, 70 lbs lost later. I know I should be super excited, AND I AM! believe me, I am almost what I was in high school.
So what am I sharing.
Now that I have spent the last 42 days in a low cal, hormone injection food restriction (I hate using the word diet). I am left with feeling super uneasy about carbs, constantly making sure I am not gaining weight for what I ate the day before, and nervous about what I should eat and when.
This has nothing to do with who I went to see, the naturopath has been amazing, supportive and so great with fielding my questions. I would see them on the regular if I had benefits for days. BUT unfortunately I need to figure some things out on my own.
What I am trying to be okay with right now.
- It’s okay to feel this way, I just need to learn what to do next without diverting back to bad eating habits
- I don’t need to snack while looking at a screen. I can not believe how hard it is to not do this! it is a habit I tried to break so many times. so I have tried my best to drink teas, or coffee or a fruit while watching or working.
- I need to find a more sustainable way to live. a healthy way to view food, exercise, and maybe realize that i am getting older and some food isn’t worth how it makes me feel in the long run.
- ALSO I love this post from Vancouver nutritionist Cristina
I am so thankful for this past year and what I have learned about myself, healthy habits, and what I am truly wanting in life. I want to be able to run with my kids, play in the park and go down slides without being too large (I did this today! so fun), and make sure my hormones, vitamins, and long term lifestyle changes that can make me the person I truly want to be. I don’t want to be a size 2, I want to be me.
have any tips for me? would love supportive, positive comments! and if you want to collaborate over a blog post with healthy resources in the area let me know!