Its official, since high school I never thought this would actually happen. I have a job where I can hang out with youth, get paid to take them out and hear there hearts. i gave up on this notion a couple years back thinking why would someone hire women as a youth pastor if there are so many men who want the job too. And its true, the ratio from men to women in this job is like 1/5 or something (feels like 1/300).
So these are my thoughts since monday getting the vote in. Which i got 99.5% yes (apparently the highest yes vote in a while).
– relief. i am good enough to do this job. it wasn’t a calling i only heard
– I am so GRATEFUL for our older generation that has learned to participate in voting and pray for me, encourage me, email, visit and do all things that have made me feel like they accept and love me despite the fact that there generation is used to women being in the kitchen and having babies.
– My HUSBAND, he has been supporting me, I know its been tough because he is searching for his call in life. But he has been so supportive and excited to see what will happen in the future. and he participates in the church in his own way ( usher, worship team and young adults leader). I am so happy I met someone who wanted to find his niche in the church.
– fear, fear that I will not live up to what the expectation is, fear that i won’t know what to do, fear i ask too many questions, just all around fear.
– rebellion. hehe i got a tiny tattoo with one of my good friends. its the size of a quarter so I don’t feel super rebellious, but i did it!
I know I will have lots of other thoughts on getting this position, and i am so thankful i will have this outlet to share with people my true raw feelings towards issues.
We have been thinking of ways to share “confessions of a pastor mom” book. My handsome husband and I are hoping to share how this has affected our home, life, son, etc. it has so many plus and minus factors ( MOSTLY PLUS!).
anyways, My thoughts today on this crisp friday morning as my son is singing behind.
– Pastor Owl