First thoughts of being a youth pastor

Its official, since high school I never thought this would actually happen. I have a job where I can hang out with youth, get paid to take them out and hear there hearts. i gave up on this notion a couple years back thinking why would someone hire  women as a youth pastor if there are so many men who want the job too. And its true, the ratio from men to women in this job is like 1/5 or something (feels like 1/300).

So these are my thoughts since monday getting the vote in. Which i got 99.5% yes (apparently the highest yes vote in a while).

– wow

– relief. i am good enough to do this job. it wasn’t a calling i only heard

– I am so GRATEFUL for our older generation that has learned to participate in voting and pray for me, encourage me, email, visit and do all things that have made me feel like they accept and love me despite the fact that there generation is used to women being in the kitchen and having babies.

– My HUSBAND, he has been supporting me, I know its been tough because he is searching for his call in life. But he has been so supportive and excited to see what will happen in the future. and he participates in the church in his own way ( usher, worship team and young adults leader). I am so happy I met someone who wanted to find his niche in the church.

– fear, fear that I will not live up to what the expectation is, fear that i won’t know what to do, fear i ask too many questions, just all around fear.

– rebellion. hehe i got a tiny tattoo with one of my good friends. its the size of a quarter so I don’t feel super rebellious, but i did it!

I know I will have lots of other thoughts on getting this position, and i am so thankful i will have this outlet to share with people my true raw feelings towards issues.

We have been thinking of ways to share “confessions of a pastor mom” book. My handsome husband and I are hoping to share how this has affected our home, life, son, etc. it has so many plus and minus factors ( MOSTLY PLUS!).

anyways, My thoughts today on this crisp friday morning as my son is singing behind.

– Pastor Owl

Using Avocado in every meal

I love avocado! so does my family. I feel like I could eat it in all my meals, breakfast, lunch and a spoon full for snacks and dinner.

I know you can make Guacomole, make a kind of sauce with mayo on your egg and cheese breakfast sandwich. But recently i have been trying to make new ways that are delicious and healthy to eat!

These last few days I have made two UNREAL dinner’s that my husband and son couldn’t stop eating and loved.

1.  Cayenne -rubbed Chicken with an Avocado and Red Onion Salsa

http://www.marthastewart.com/338117/cayenne-rubbed-chicken-with-avocado-sals

It was super easy to make, and so delicious! we had it with roasted peppers and potatoes.  the cayenne is not very spicy so our son was totally fine eating this meal.

2. soy-glazed salmon with Cucumber-Avocado salad.

http://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/food-network-kitchens/soy-glazed-salmon-with-cucumber-avocado-salad-recipe.html

the only thing we would say is maybe make some rice to go with it. It was definitely filling, but Salmon is expensive. We bought a lot (save-on foods had a points deal), but if I didn’t buy the amount i did, i think we would still be hungry.

these are two recipes i definitely recommend!

-Owl

a month long hiatus

As you might of noticed (if you are constantly checking our page), we took a month off. This was not on purpose, I (owl) have been dealing with a very sick child and husband, and now have just finished recovering myself from a horrendous bug. On top of having a job, sick son and 6 christmas gatherings, I have been having interviews to further my position as interim to permanent youth pastor. Slowly I am working away on my credentialing, and I will be starting my candidating this Sunday (EEP). With all this hustle and bustle I have caught myself in the heartbreak of talking with students who made interesting choices in celebrating new years and christmas parties. This season has been difficult for me. On one hand i am thankful that these students feel comfortable telling me what they do, and even prior to what was going to happen. But no matter what I said or did, they do what they want. I sometimes feel like i am in an awkward relationship with them, I am not there age as well as i am not there parent. So as much as i make total sense, even if they respect me completely, it won’t matter what i do or say, they will do what they want. Example, I had one student who spent the new years festivities at her boyfriends house with a few friends. She had mentioned to me that her man drinks occasionally (lets remember they are in high school), and her friends (ranging from 14-17 years old) were all excited to play drinking games. All of them didn’t know how they were going to get home or what they will say to here parents after midnight had struck and she knew no one could drive her home. I talked with her about sex, and alcohol and what it can lead to, I tried to cover all my ground. I also said that I cared a lot about her and I didn’t want her to do any of it. She understood even though I asked her not to, she said she would keep what i said in mind. that being said, it doesn’t matter what i say or do, teenagers think short term, not about consequences or the aftermath. I remember hearing that our brains are not fully developed until our early twenties. the last thing to develop is our long term thinking. Its kind of around the time when we think we start thinking clearly and start thinking about our future and how our past has effected it.  I try to share with teenagers that i am trying to be that part of their brain before it is developed. it rarely works, but at least  i try? what more can i do. This is just one part of my month that has been leaving me a bit restless and feeling a little pointless in my relationships. But i know that it doesn’t matter what i say or do, as long as i have God as my center, He will use his timing and not mine. – Owl